LEARNING SELF LOVE IS THE DAILY PRACTICE OF TRUSTING YOUR INNER KNOWING AND SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH
When we've forgotten how to love ourselves, we often forget to listen to our bodies, trust in our own inner knowing, and we make choices and decisions that perhaps go against what is in alignment for ourselves and our hearts.
A BIG PIECE OF SELF LOVE IS SIMPLY REMEMBERING THAT OUR INNER KNOWING, OUR INTUITION, AND OUR NEEDS AND DESIRES ARE WORTHY OF OUR ATTENTION AND COMMITMENT
I went into the Dr. today to get my IUD out - it was something I've had for 4 years. I got it because my ex (boyfriend at the time) didn't want kids. Even though I did. I wanted to be with him, so I got the IUD to make sure he never had to worry. (Let me add he didn't ask me to do it, this was my decision). Even though I know I did want kids one day, and was frankly a little worried about having a piece of metal bouncing around in there, I went ahead because I didn't want to take hormonal pills. What a self-loving girl would have done is end the relationship, because it wasn't right. We didn't want the same things. But I didn't love myself. So I did what I thought I needed to make him happy so he would stay with me.
Its been a painful reminder (physically) every month that I had put aside my desires for an unhealthy and misaligned partner. I have also felt energetically like its been blocking my flow and my connection to my feminine power.
I've had an intuition about it for awhile, even though no doctor had said there was anything to worry about (I've had to switch Drs multiple times cause of our ridiculous health care system). I felt like there was something funky going on. I should have asked them to check but I assumed they had.
Trusting and listening to myself is still fairly new for me - something that has been a big part of my own Self-Love journey. It took me months to find a doctor who was covered AND that I knew I'd feel good with.
It turns out I was right.
The string was cut too short, its "lost" in my uterus.
I have to go in for another attempt on Monday to hopefully get it out. If not I might need a procedure that involves anesthetic.
Its a bit scary, but I'm going to visualize it going smoothly.
And I'm sure things will, but the other thing I know is that no matter what happens, I won't blame myself. I forgive myself. And I love myself now.
The thing I want you to know is, one of the best ways to learn self-love, is to learn to honor and trust that inner knowing.
Speak up when something feels wrong
Leave a relationship instead of compromising
Listen to your intuition
Trust and honor yourself and your body
Empower yourself and use the power fearlessly
most importantly perhaps...
Forgive yourself for the times you didn't...
...THAT'S HOW YOU LOVE YOURSELF.
Natalie and her utrerus.